girl language

• When I said sorry, believe me I feel it.
• When you see me starting to cry, hold me and tell me everything’s gonna be alright.
• When I ignore you, give me your attention.
• When I’m quiet, ask me what’s wrong.
• When I push or hit you, grab me and don’t let go.
• When I’m mad and I walked away from you, follow me.
• If I didn’t text you, it’s because I’m waiting for you to text me.
• When I say I love you, Don’t doubt. I mean it.

Just don’t. I mean if you’re in a relationship, it’s not cute or funny in any way for you to go off and flirt with someone else. You’re with someone who is possibly hurting or jealous, because you go off and do such things. Sometimes, this person you’re with will say it’s okay, but it’s because they put up with it, only because they adore you to pieces, they love/like you a lot.

note

You know that person that kept you by their side and never dropped you for their friends, for anyone? You know that person when you feel like you’re left out of the crowd, they’ll come and talk to you just so you won’t feel left out? You know that person that stayed up all night with you just to wait until you fall asleep on the phone? You know that person who sacrifices their sleep just for the little talks with you? You know the person who makes sure you’re always alright or that you will be? You know that person who is willing to see you smile again and care about you more than their own happiness? You know that person who’s willing to risk their feelings because they have a chance of falling in like or love with you? You know that person who’s willing to get their heart broken just because of you? You know that person who wouldn’t judge you, no matter how many bad things you’ve done? You know that person who is willing to be there for you even when they’re busy, they’ll adjust their time just for you? You know that person who’s willing to always accept you back into their arms?

It can be anyone. It can be your best friend, it can be your closest friend(s). You shouldn’t let this person go, ever. You know this person tries their hardest, their best to be by your side and not leave you. This person’s motive is always genuine. It’s not bullshit, the only reason why they end up leaving is because they grow tired too. They’re understanding or willing to listen to you. These people are always getting hurt. These type of people who’s nice to them, suddenly change. Not just because they want to, but because they get hurt too many times. These people can’t wait around forever.

Don’t let that person go. You’re missing out on someone who’s amazing, who’s real with you, someone who was daring to eat your words out, someone who was there for you all along, and last of all, someone who accept you for you through thick and thin.

Broken Hearted

This is for the broken hearted. I know how do you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know it’s not going to help, but you don’t want to cry, because it would just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter hat this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most is normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside you’re just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understand how do you feel, and how deep you’ve been hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn’t happened to them. And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don’t know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday no, so you learn that basically you are alone with all of this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly flowing and you’re to the point where you don’t care who sees them. Because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that it’s not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place.

Lord, give me the endurance I need to work until I reach the dreams You have assigned for my life

i never want to overthink. But, I just can't help myselft from checking out your profile on social network. I can't stop stalking your new photos and giggling when I see it. I can't stop myself from deraming that one day you'll realize that I was

you

Hey you
So you never really found your way
Stay true
Did you ever make it through today

That when I think about a day without it
Everyday’s the same
You wish that you could find someone
But I’m the only one to blame

Can’t you see
I beg and plead
Cause when your eyes light up the skies at night
I know you’re gonna find your way back to me

No don’t
Don’t you ever let a piece of me down
Cause time won’t
Get back when I’m never around

When we live between so many walls
That I can barely breathe
You say that you just want someone
But I’m the only one you need

Can’t you see
I Beg and plead
Cause when your eyes light up the skies at night
I know you’re gonna find your way

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sekarang bulan april trepat setahun yang lalu kita pergi makan bareng, ada maria, butet, martin juga. kenapa aku tetap saja mengingat kamu.
namun yang paling membuatku ingat ma kamu bukan itu, tapi waktu kamu ngantarin aku pulang waktu persiapan natal oukimene mipa tahun 2010 nc.
jujur aku ngk pernah dibonceng sambil pegangan tangan seperti, walaupun ma mantan pacar aku. ntah kenapa aku bisa seperti itu ma kamu. walaupun aku ngk ngerespect pegangangan kamu itu.
sumpah..
aku mengenalmu baru sejak masuk kuliah, kedekatan yang bukan biasa itu membuatku mempunyai rasa yang lebih ke kamu.
sebentar mengenalmu tapi kenangan yang ada cukup banyak.
semester 5,
ntah aku akan pacaran ma syp aku juga ngk tau.
F :: orang yang baik bgt ma aku, care juga, dewasa juga
A :: lumayan baik, happy selalu dekat dy
itu yang membuatku sulit memilih.
aku benci ma A karena kebohongannya.. sumpah.. benar2 benci..
tapi tetap az ad rasa yang berbeda.